It's time for me to practice
I have been studying accounting for nearly five years.
I started it when I was in F.4 and that textbook is still on my book shelf.
Recently, (Actually, since the day i start) I heard a lot bad news or negative things about working in Accounting Industry.
Some of them are true.
Nevertheless, I still want to work hard on this area, at least for this moment.
Just like usual, I checked my facebook to see if there are new updates or picture from my lovely friends.
Then I read this “Great, There’re no presents in my birthday. That means i don’t have any friend, fine”.
Meanwhile, i started thinking all my birthdays and presents before.
When i was a little boy, I had no presents in my birthdays.
It was because my birthday was during the school holiday – Christmas.
I didn’t see any classmates since most of them spent their time with their family, so i didn’t have any present for my birthday, and also Christmas.
Every kid in Hong Kong has a dream and that is : Birthday Party in McDonald.
I had this dream when i was a kid.
However, i didn’t have one. I even didn’t tell my mom that i wanted it, actually.
My parents didn’t give me presents neither, but they gave me MONEY.
I wanted to have a party. Therefore, i organized one for myself when i was 18.
In fact, i just invited everybody i known to have a drink in a bar.
At last, i received many presents and i realized that I am not as popular as I think about myself.
Not many people came, and many of them gone even before 2 am.
That’s also one of the reasons about why I didn’t celebrate my birthday in last year.
Finally, i understood what i really want in that day.
I didn’t get many presents but i get a few SMSs and messages from Facebook.
Also, i had a dinner with my friend.
I couldn’t say i was very happy, yet it was enough for me.
A month ago, I promised a guy to do something.
Finally, i did it and that thing is good for me.
I asked myself, did i do that for that guy, or simply for myself.
At first, my answer was for myself.
I did everything for myself. He was the guy who gave me “suggestion” and I was just accepted that “suggestion”.
But at last, i knew that i was lying.
I did it, only because he spoke that.
This is not the first time, and i hope it is the last time.
I do not sure if i get benefit or not.
It’s a kind of trade off. I get something that he likes or he thinks i should have, yet i give up my choice, habits, etc as exchange.
Sometimes i feel confuse when i am doing it.
I know that is good for me, but “DO I LIKE IT?”
Is that “good ” more important than my like or dislike?
I was so depress today.
I don’t know why, but i think it is related to alone and Saturday
To relief my emotion, I tried different method.
I ate, drank water, went downstairs to collect mails and at last, I watched.
Actually i needed some cigarettes and alcohol, yet there was nothing in my home.
I watched a suck Thai scary movie in the afternoon.
Then i downloaded PPS and started watching Sex and the City.
In 12:30am, I finished the whole season 1.
Luckily, I am still alive and with bravery(at least I am when i am tying)
All of my friends know that I don’t like, actually is hate, sports.
The main reason is sports make me sweat and i hate that feeling pretty much.
However, everything has exception.
My exception is swimming.
I could not say I love swimming but definitely it is the only acceptable up to this moment.
I tried badminton before but i gave up when i finished the first game with my friend.
I was stuck with that. I lost (the direction of the ball and also my mind) in every single minute.
Although i bought a racket with six hundreds dollars, i still chose to give it up.
“Thank You”, that exactly what you said.
I had been waiting for more than a year.
The only thing that i could reply was “You are Welcome”
After u gone, I was thinking many things,
such as their face, their words and the conversation between me and them.
However, i didn’t think of you.
That ‘Thank You’ may be too late for me,
and i don’t even care about it.
Nevertheless, I admit that i wanted that “Thank You” so badly before.
But not now and it has passed already in a long long time ago.
If you ask me whether i like sleeping, I will say Yes.
However, I always don’t have a good sleep.
Expect for some special case, like i am too tired.
In most of the time, I go to bed at 2 o’clock but fell asleep at 3.
There must have a hour for me lying on the bed.
Nevertheless, i fall asleep in the wrong time frequently.
I am easy to do that when i have finished dinner (mostly 9 o’clock)
or in the afternoon.
Unfortunately, the result of doing that is can’t sleep at the night.
Thus, fall asleep at 3 again.
I wish human beings got a switch.
Then i could fell asleep easier.
In this morning, I wanted to find a disk, but I couldn’t find it.
Then, i started to search every possible place in my home.
While i was searching, some faces appeared in my mind again.
Time passed very fast and it is more than a year after already, but things just like happened in yesterday.
I know and understand there are always things that i could not do it perfectly. Also, I couldn’t change the things i did.
I should forget it.
However, if i have a chance to change, i would do something more or even something wrong.
Nevertheless, i still alive. I just need some time to recover.
If you ask me why my English is lack behind the others,
I can only say a single word – Lazy.
When i was in junior form,
I totally put down my English Language.
(Well, Actually, i put down all subjects except Chinese History)
I played and slept in class everyday.
No pressure, however did not have much fun.
Time passed very fast and i needed to face the first public exam in my life.
Although, I wanted to catch up but i could not.
Afterward, I only use English when i really need to use it.
I don’t like English even in this moment but i know i have to learn it and no more lazy.
In this extremely long “SUMMER HOLIDAY”, I went to study German.
In yesterday, there was a section talking about languages.
Such as “What languages do you speak?”, “”Why you study German?” etc.
My teacher asked us the reason of learning German.
Some of my classmates said they would go to Germany or Austria or Switzerland to further their study.
Some of them said it was for their interest.
My answer was “Zum Spaß” – Just for Fun.
I do sure I was the only one in there who without any objective. 
Meanwhile, my teacher told us that she knows Dutch.
The reason for her to learn Dutch was “for Man”
I like her so much. ^^
However, yesterday was the last lesson of the course.
(A1-1 Total 9 lessons twice a week)
